Just Relax. Being OK.

White Eyelet Dress

Dress: Forever XXI (current)/Belt: from another dress/ Shoes: TJ Maxx/ Scarf: J. Crew Factory/ Top: J. Crew Factory/ Clutch: TJ Maxx

White Eyelet Dress

Dear Alissa,
     You started blogging as a way to remember the ups and downs of college. You wanted a way to document the joy and tears. You need to remember that you are almost done. You have supported yourself, paid for school yourself without help. You need to remember that you always freak out, calm down and then find a way to deal with all the crap that life gives you. College isn’t just about learning how to write, critically think and all that. It’s about learning who you are and how you deal with things. 

You need to remember that as much as you try and plan things out, organize your life, create spreadsheets and all that, stuff is still going to come at you that you have no control over. And that is OK. It’s OK to have some unknowns. You cannot control everything. You cannot control how your teachers grade or whether or not you have a job. 

It’s OK to admit that you don’t know everything. That you haven’t figured out what you are going to do with your life and that you really just want to eat a gallon of ice cream when you think about growing up. (We won’t discuss the amount of sour gummy worms I have eaten during college to cope.) Just be OK. You aren’t the only 22 year old that doesn’t know what is going to happen. 

Just be OK. Just freaking relax and be OK with some unknowns. They’re going to teach you something, don’t try and ignore the lesson. 

22 year old self