With the spring comes the annual trying on shorts. The annual seeing a bunch of really fit people who apparently ran 20 miles everyday in the snow during winter look even more fit. Oh and the annual me being hard on myself and increasing my workouts. I actually did workout every single day of this past semester until fall break. After fall break life got insanely busy and I didn’t make it a priority to workout. I’m the type that feels a lot better about myself when I am working out. I’ve learned that I’m never going to have a stupid thigh gap and I’m not going to be a size four. It took years of being hard on myself to realize that. I was making myself miserable by me defining myself through a number on my pants. I wasn’t swimming in public because of my thighs. So within the last year I’ve decided to treat myself better.
I lost weight. I’ve kept it off. However, more importantly I’ve learned to just be happy with the way I am. Healthy and happy with who I am. Sure, there will always be people who are thinner and prettier but that is life. I am here to live my own life. You are here to live your own life, not to be defined by a number or how someone views your body. So go out there and wear a swimsuit. Wear shorts (but for the love of God cover your butt) that make you feel good.
What do I do to stay active? I walk on campus. I do weights in the gym and loving doing 45 minute bike rides. I’ve found that if I go during my favorite TV shows then the time flies by and I don’t feel guilty for either a) watching mindless TV or b) skip a workout. However, I don’t beat myself up like I used to for missing a workout. I treat myself better and just try harder the next day. So as cliche as it is, seriously, treat yourself better. You are beautiful. You are amazing. You are unique. Don’t beat yourself up for what you haven’t done.