Things aren’t going my way right now. However, out of this, things have come up that I never thought would have. I’ve made friends that I never thought I would love so much. I’ve been shown the people who love and care about me are more than I could have imagined. I’ve started pursing things that I love. They may not pay a lot but they are what I love. I’m making it right now. I don’t have it together but I’m getting closer to that. Most likely in a year from now, I will be looking back at this post and understand why all of this is happening.
So how am I dealing with all of this? I’m wearing gigantic floppy hats and polka dot dresses. No really, that’s exactly how I am dealing with all of this. I am dressing up because I know that if I don’t I will lose sight that there is a light to the end of this tunnel. I refuse to let myself look shabby while also slightly down about life. So although life isn’t exactly going my way, I’m still going to dress my own way.
Someday, probably in a few months or next summer, I’m going to be really open and honest about how this summer has been one of the best and worst summers of my life. Life after graduation has not gone at all like I thought it would have. I’ve tried to have an optimistic and bubbly tone throughout this period. I’ve tried to laugh at myself despite contradicting feelings. Life can be incredibly beautiful but also very overwhelming, painful and knock you off your game every single time that you feel like you just got it all back together.
I don’t have the dream job that I thought I would. I don’t have all the Michael Kors purses that I thought I would because I would spend my big girl paychecks on them. I’m still shopping at TJ Maxx for their clearance purses. I don’t have a J. Crew credit card. I barely have a student credit card that I can pay off. I don’t have a new/newly used car. I still have a 14 year old car that doesn’t like to drive up hills.
Dress: Joe Fresh (Exact and under $15!)
Hat: J. Crew Factory (exact and on sale!)
Necklace: C/O Hello Cheeseburger (coming soon)